I'm Done

Last day of work for this year. Will be going from a very hot and dry place to a hot and wet place and then on to a very cold and extremely dry place.

With all the work and errands lately, I am hardly in a holiday mood until I get on that plane tomorrow.

In terms of bookeeping of people in my life, I reckon I have been pretty 'diligent' this year, maybe even a little too diligent. , I am done with so many of them, including my two ex-housemates who were also very close friends. Who would have thought? Almost ten years of friendship just down the drain like that. But then again, between all the fake smiles and pretence and explanation, I would rather have it this way. It will do us all more good in the long run.

So I can't say I have had a good year. If anything, it was a pretty shit really. Before, I thought my life was in upheavel due to all the frequent travelling and moving around and random people and all. Fact of the matter is, even without all those, my life does not seem to be much in place either.

So yes, I have reconciled with myself and my life again and I am just going with the flow now, sort of. I will travel as and when I can and am willing to go anywhere as long as there is a need to, be it work, personal or family.

All the things that have happened, all the thoughts and plans and hopes and wishes that goes along with them, will still be here to stay. It makes no difference which city I am in or which year it is. It does not mean that I will forget everything swiftly once the new year is here. But I'll be fine. Of all the things that I should not have done this year, at least there are still a few others that I am pretty proud of. I don't know if I am seeing things more clearly now or am just simply stupified by expereinces, but at least now I know what I am uncomfortable with.

I have been myopic, and I will make sure that doesn't happen again.