Serendipity? The Noun Or The Dessert Shop?

They have probably showed Sleepless in Seattle like 50 times on TV, and I have probably watched it 50 times too. Same position on the couch just like that night when I watched it in Seattle, same emotions every time, same aftermath feelings each and every time. I am such a girl when it comes to movies, it's almost silly.

"you don't want to fall in love, you want to fall in love in movies"

A line from the film, a line so true maybe. Just like this line by The Killers, 'now don't be shy, let's cause a scene, like lovers do, on silver screen'.

I don't know, crazy as it may sound, I go ga-ga over such things. Only for movies and songs and maybe from people I truly adore. Other than that, I would probably cringe to death.

Do you believe in signs? Or are they just coincidences? The main theme for many movies and songs, including this one.

After all these years of my life, I s'pose I still believe in them. No matter what has happened before, no matter how many times I have been proven wrong, I guess I have to keep that faith in me.

There is always that question. Is is fate that we meet the people we meet? Or is it who we are that leads us to meet the people we do? I have many people that question before, and I s'pose I have never gotten a sure answer before. I am uncertain myself too.

Philip had his final round of interview today, three cities and four months later. Somehow, I feel the nerves for him too. It is a big job and if he gets it, I am sure it will turn his life around in a big way too. I am as excited over the arrival of Monday as he is when the verdict will be out.

So I managed to have a perfectly quiet Friday evening, having come home straight after dinner. I meant it this way, and I am glad I did it. I needed the time alone, not the entire weekend, but definitely for tonight.

Are you lonely? I was asked just yesterday. No, I don't think I am. Bored I may be, when I am at work on some days or when I am moping around in the house particularly during those lazy Sunday afternoons. Empty? Yeah, I must admit I do feel a tad of that at times. But then again, who doesn't feel empty from time to time? It happens to the best of us even. It happens to people who are seemingly happily attached or married too. It doesn't matter which city you are in either. It could be a city of 15 million or just 1 million. It's just too hard to fill up the soul sometimes.

I heard myself speak earlier this evening, that I will make a decision about my stint here by my next birthday. I appreciate all the opportunities and recognition given to me, but feeling is a funny thing. You could love something or someone madly one minute, but feel totally numbed the next, so to speak. It's just like that famous line in the movie Closer.

The grass is always greener. Seattle seems nice enough for me, so is Melbourne to a lot of people. You hear about people getting jobs in countries like Spain and Italy and all the far away exotic places. I feel envious sometimes but most times I don't. I mean, of course I want to get a stint like that too but I guess it takes a portion of hard work and another portion of fate and maybe a pinch of luck to make it all happen. So yeah, if I never get such a chance, then I don't, so be it.

I s'pose at this stage, I am happy to stay here or just go home. Either way, I am mentally prepared for it. As for all the logistics, I am sure that could all be worked out. I have done it before so it shouldn't be impossible to do it again I guess. Just as long as the inspiration is there.

There is only so much a person can plan I guess. Cliche and silly as it may sound, like I mentioned before, I still believe that destiny plays a part too.

To sum it all up, it's like a line from Sleepless in Seattle:

"you could make a million decisions and it wouldn't change a thing and suddenly, one day, you bought a sandwich, your whole life changes."