So What About It?

After a coupla nights of dinner and drinks, I s'pose I have gathered enough thoughts to write an entry, it's been a while since I last did one. So what's new?

Been caught in between my housemate and his girlfriend, well, sort of. I have been lending my ear to both sides, and that always sucks. In any case, I won't even mention too much about it cos it's definitely secondary to me.

So I had a good coupla nights, so I met up with the person. So we shared a good few hours together, and so I got something out of it. But so what?

I seem to have the feeling I'm barking up the wrong tree (again) and I just get no satisfaction (thanks, Rolling Stones) out of the whole deal. I mean I do get some satisfaction in some ways (or more ways than one actually, if you know what I mean) but I can't see where this is headed for. I can rule if off purely as a fling/entertainment sorta thing, but do I really want to do that?

I can sense somthing going on with the other side, what's with all the nice words/texts and even remembering what brand of ciggies I smoke (and to actually got me a carton from duty-free) and what restaurants I have spoken about as well as updating me with the movements. I don't know if I am ready for it though, cos afterall, this person is kinda happily "married" and why the hell do I want to get involved in someone like that?

I s'pose I am drawn to certain aspects, like this person seems to be really switched on and I truly enjoy the intelligent conversations we have, so much so that they got me thinking and actually finding myself learning from them all. It's been a while since such a thing happened, and it's real refreshing. I mean like, during the course of life, we (or maybe just me) tend to meet more f***wits than anything else, and that can be really tiring and depressing even.

So yes, here I am having conversations with myself again and having 10,000 things going through me at the moment. I have to follow through, at least till the Finn Brothers concert (cos we are going together). Anything else after that is anybody's call. I s'pose this time, I have a slight clue as to what I would really do. I just gotta be a little more pro-active and more self-protective, can't make the same mistake twice.