Should I Believe in Signs?

Have you ever bent over, tied your shoe lace, listening to a specific song thinking of a certain person, done tying, looked up, and saw the very person standing right there? I have never, not till this evening, that is. It sounds totally silly, cheesy even, but I must say the emotions were pretty big, so big that I was tongue-tied and stupefied. The same person I spent a very good time with last Friday, the person whom I dubbed as my new friend these past three weeks.

Just three weeks, it doesn't seem like much time does it? No, it doesn't, and no, my emotions and thoughts are not running wild yet, not this time. Why so? If I seem to like this person enough. That's why, maybe. I don't want to rush anything. I don't expect anything. So even if nothing works out, I want to keep a friend, for once.

I have been discovering more good things about my new friend with each meeting. It sounds good, but maybe it is not really. No, I am not over-analysing things again, I know I tend to. But you know how it is when you find out the good stuff about a person first before the bad ones, which are present, no doubt, and then form this false impression of the person being perfect and all that only to be in for a shock later? All these so-called good things should not be a basis for wanting to commit to a person, they should only serve as added incentives. It sounds a bit too practical for my liking but I know I can be rational like that. I don't want to be muddle-headed by all just one side of a person and start raving about it and then only to come up with all these reasons, or excuses even, to plunge in blindly.

I do like my new friend, have I mentioned that yet? But not in that way yet though, funnily. However, I am beginning to realise that I am liking this person more and more. Fate seems to be throwing me situation after situation to reaffirm the fact that this person is, indeed, a pretty fabulous being.

Last week I heard about my friend's date from hell, and I couldn't help but feel glad this person in nothing like the freak he got caught up with. Last night I had dinner with yet another blast-from-the-past, and all the time I was making little comparisons in my head and at the same time wishing I could swap company instead.

Why are all these characters making a re-appearance now? Are they really serving as contrast to make me see things clearer?

All these encounters, all these conversatons not only made me realised how normal and nice my new friend is, but also the fact that I have indeed outgrown a particular type of people and how my expectations have changed, drastically.

It's like in this almost crazy society, it's refreshing to find a normal person, someone who could even be labelled as boring even. Ask me just a year ago and I would tell you no way will I even remotely consider such a person, but how things have changed.

To sum it all up, it's like you have always like Restaurant A, but just liking it only, no major cravings, no big emotions. And then you try Restaurant B, serving the same type of food, but inferior in quality compared to A, after which, you actually realised how good Restaurant A is, and then you have a new-found respect and liking for it. That's nothing wrong with this, except now you know you can hardly dine at Restaurant A casually anymore because of all the hype you have created for yourself and all the emotions that comes along with it. You can, of course, choose to continue dining at A to make yourself happy except now, you want this happiness to last and you are afraid of jeopardising something.

This time, I am playing it all differently. I don't how I could cope with it but it seems like I can. I am taking it real easy and slow, and totally not too flustered like past episodes. I just have to keep reminding myself I want this person as a friend even if nothing works out, not like before, like never before. I respect this person more than just the physical bit, especially after seeing those old-school Enid Blyton hardbacks on the shelf. Like seriously, I could have melted at that very moment. Silly little things like that, I must say I am a real sucker for.